O_O

Firstly, I need to learn a proper bedtime.
Secondly...er I dunno.
Thirdly.....

Anyway, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. So many things are different for me now. I think I finally understand what Joe had been trying to tell me over the years. He said I shouldn't be so uptight or closed in. I think I know why I was that way. I hadn't found someone I was comfortable with. When I look back at past feelings, I find it foolish that I ever felt that way. Good riddance. Even if they turned around and realized a truth, it's too late. I have someone. I don't know what this feeling is. It's like I'm happy and content, yet I long for more. Sometimes I wake up with this lonely sensation, this strong urge to be at her side. Believe me, I wish I could teleport because that's where I would be, and then I would conviently vanish to prevent issues.

Hhm, is there anything I won't do...yes there is, but I don't know what it could be. I feel as if I have enough trust to try new things and then determine if I like them or not. But that's only with her. I didn't feel comfortable with anyone else. I don't know what it is, but I feel very comfortable around her. It's like those walls I kept around myself are starting to fall apart whenever I talk to or see her. Of course, they go right back up with other people who think I'll open up to them. Sorry suckers, but you don't get that ability. I only open up to people I like or have fondness for. But in this case, it's more than fondness. I think its love. I find myself wondering "What is Kira doing right now," or "Man I wish I could see Kira right now" or "Eww why do I live so far away!" I want to be with her... >.< One day I will be. Even if I have to leave things behind and start fresh.

Okay, I'll go to bed now. This is enough.