Submissive? Yes? No?

Gender is irrelevant.
As a matter of fact, I think my tastes when gender gets involved are bit weird. I think guys with an obvious feminine side are the most adorable men on earth, even if they are gay. It breaks the whole "YOU ARE A MAN BE MANLY" thing that people spout nonsense about. As for women, I do not like them overly girly and flowery and prissy. Those girls annoy me. I find people whose gender is difficult to guess by looking at them to be really attractive. But anyway, that has nothing to do with this topic.

So. Submission. What is it?
Well for me, it would be having that one person that I can happily give myself to. There was this one person I would have handed myself to on a platter, but of course, they didn't want.

It isn't easy to get me to put you in such a status. Before I felt the way I did, a whole six months had passed. It took a very long time, and soon I found myself attached. I cried about it. A WHOLE LOT. And then I confessed, and failed. Unrequited love is fucking pain in the ass. Sometimes I look back on it and wonder if the feelings are still there. They might be, but I don't know if they will return to the front.

Ah yes, someone tried to make me doubt information I had been told. I take all views I get into account and make my own conclusion about them. I have read all over the place about D/s, and even though sex is there, it isn't the main focus. Sometimes I look at it as the Fighter/Sacrifice dynamic seen in the anime/manga series Loveless. Doms get their power and control from their submissives, because the submissive is giving it to them. It's not the other way around. If a sub doesn't submit, then a Dom can't dominate, right? That is how I see it. It's an exchange. If one half isn't working, then the other half won't either. Two parts of a whole. Or as in Loveless, a pair that shares the same name.

That's what it is to me. 

Sex? What Sex?

Sex is not important to me.
Let me say it again.
SEX IS NOT IMPORTANT TO ME.

As a matter of fact, why do I need it?  Sure, I might think about it. Sure, I might look at hentai. But that doesn't mean that I want to have sex with the first man that offers it. There are toys, plenty of them that can satisfy better than a male can. When it comes to relationships, it is the full reason why I'm not in one.

I am sick of being approached like I'm a piece of meat and nothing else. My friend told me that if a guy does me like that I should look at him as if he were a piece of meat. Why and egg him on? No. If a guy approaches me I would like it if he would be friendly and perhaps talk with me about his interests, what he likes to do for fun, or any other non-sexual topic. When I first meet you, I want to get to know you. I do not want to jump into your pants.

Sex:
1) STDs. And don't give me the whole use condoms thing.
2) BABIES. I do not want any right now. (Again, don't say that condoms and the pill are surefire prevention methods)

I do not think I am even ready to go that far. Ugh.