I don't understand it one little bit. In my life so far, I have had these moments in which I would find myself very interested in another person, whether they be male or female. And yet I wonder why I tend to shy away from letting myself get close to others. I know the reason why:
THEY FUCKING IGNORE ME.
I wish I could rip out this stupid heart and destroy it because I don't need it. It's always causing me pain. Oh, people tell me "You gotta love yourself first!" I do. I'm not complaining. I'm angry and upset because it seems that every person I manage to gather the courage to confess to, they simply brush me off. Yes, there was one who said that the fact that I had courage to speak up impressed her, but that was it...
Maybe I'm too shy.
